On being an adult

I’m now realizing that teaching is not for the faint of heart.  And it’s damn hard for young people in their twenties just starting out to be okay with all the things about teaching…or any job for that matter.  Being in your twenties—just out of college—well, to be frank, you’re used to everything being about you. Your class schedule.  Your weekends.  Your free time.  Your college experience.  Your learning experiences.  You.  And now it’s time to break free of that, and it’s a hard thing.  Harder than any of us expected.  You don’t always get a weekend to yourself, to relax and drink, and do whatever the hell you want.  And you probably have hardly any free time.  And sometimes it's just so damn hard that you don't feel like you're learning anything at all.

We were warned.  But we didn’t listen.  And I think that’s how it has to be.  Everyone knows that you don’t learn until you’ve experienced it.  And that statement can be applied to teaching…looks like I’ve come full circle.  My students will learn nothing unless they experience it.  Experience it in such a way that is meaningful to them.

Kt

Sunday Mass

Hello and welcome to my 2nd post...

Over the past five months, while looking for jobs, watching old episodes of friends, cooking vegetarian recipes, following blogs, DIYing, and spending time with my mom, I've also been searching.

Searching for...everything.  It's difficult to narrow it down because I feel like I've been coming up with ideas right and left; first, I thought I'd move back to Poland and get a job--ah! how nice it would be to go back and live there!! the food, the people, the life in Europe!...didn't happen.  ooh! maybe I'll be a nanny in new york city!  I could live with a family in Brooklyn, be close to Philip, explore the city! unrealistic.  what about being an au pair in Ireland?? I've always wanted to go--I'll feel close to my heritage, I'll live in a new and exciting place..! nothing to do with teaching.  not the right path.

And through all of that searching, there was one thing I wasn't searching for...why my faith has waned.  Finally, this morning in mass, this was the topic at the forefront of my mind.

religion, my faith, and church


lately, I have been "lost" in certain ways regarding my faith. When I was in Jackson (Ohio), I hated the little Catholic church in town...that is, the only Catholic church in town.  So I stopped going.  And now I'm in Harrisburg, and I haven't found a church I connect with yet--the music sucks, the priests seem bored, and they are hung up on the new translations.  I don't feel anything during mass, so I don't see a point in going. Soooo, what's a girl to do?

I have always loved being Catholic but lately, well, it hasn't been measuring up.  Where is the passion and love that priests are supposed to exude on the altar?  How can anyone sing their hearts out in mass without a loving choir to follow?  And for God sakes, WHY is everyone so hung up on these new stupid translations?!  I mean, isn't it supposed to be the meaning behind the words and not the words themselves?

I have a million more questions that I am not going to bore you with, but it feels nice to say them "out loud."  I don't expect anyone to be able to answer all of these questions, not even myself.  But I ask those questions in order to continue to find where and what my faith is supposed to be.

Tomorrow: Teaching vs. Acting


kkkkkatie

Hello, and welcome to my "Attempt at Blogging"

Hello everyone.  I'm Katie (KT, Caytee, Boots, or Zega if you prefer)

I am currently living in Harrisburg, with my mother, step-father, and 13 year old cousin (she moved in with us for the school year).

I am jobless, except for the occasional subbing gig.

I need an outlet, and I've chosen the internet.  If you'd like to follow along, that'd be amazing.  If not, well, your loss :)

I know the "trend" right now is blogging, so I'm not doing something "original" you may say.  But I feel cut off from my friends since I'm all the way in Eastern PA, so I figure this is a way to clue everyone in on my life and stay connected in some way.

Anyways, this is my first entry explaining myself.  I may or may not write more tonight, depending on how I feel.  This may be a day-to-day writing experience, or it may be a feel-the-moment kind of writing.  We shall see!

Kat ie